As I may have mentioned in previous blog posts, I have made some serious personal decisions regarding my relationship with Tamoxifen. Ideally, I should commit to 5 years, but realistically I have decided on less.
A few weeks ago, I nervously met with my oncologist to discuss my official plan. I was bracing myself for frowns and/or words that I did not want to hear. Instead I was not only met with the full support of my decision, but complete understanding of the reasoning behind it. Once again, I was reaffirmed of how happy I am with the doctors that I chose to take care of me! Of course, my oncologist reviewed all the risks and statistics with me about my decision. The additional risk for me is really so minimal. When I say “risks”, I really mean the statistics that try to predict the likelihood of a reoccurrence for me. According to different test scores and the overall characteristics of my cancer, chemo was more beneficial to me than the Tamoxifen.
I am not disclosing my full plan on this blog. I have shared the specifics with a few individuals that are close to me (of course the husband, my BFF’s and mom), but I don’t want people constantly wondering or asking me if I’m pregnant yet. It is bad enough that strangers/acquaintances already ask me why I don’t have kids or what I’m waiting for (yes, people say this!).
I have set a date for when I will stop Tamoxifen. It is recommended that I wait 6 months after I stop Tamoxifen to try and start a family. And I still have to talk to my OB/GYN about removing this IUD (do I wait until after the 6 months are over?). So, know this – even if I stopped Tamoxifen tomorrow, I’d still have to wait a while.
The best part about all of this is that I feel really confident in the decisions that I made and the course that we have set. I am learning patience. I know that there may be many more obstacles once I go off of Tamoxifen (mainly revolving around fertility/infertility), but for now, its just one step at a time.