One year ago yesterday (11/9/10) started off as a normal day. Who knew it would be the beginning of all my craziness! One year ago today, I had my first mammogram, which led to further screenings before my official diagnosis.
Considering that I felt my lump purely by accident, I feel like the luckiest girl in the world (probably not what you’d expect to hear from a cancer survivor). However, I often think about the “what ifs”? What if we weren’t caulking my shower and I didn’t have to use Bri’s shower that day? What if I hadn’t forgotten my loofah in my shower and had to scrub up with my hands? Or what if I had run across our house in a towel to grab my loofah out of my bathroom? What if I hadn’t been proactive and called my doctor immediately (well, after calling my mom and Bri of course)? Someone was definitely looking out for me that day and I feel so lucky and blessed that I caught everything so early!
There is so much to reflect on and look back at. I’m glad that I maintained this blog to keep my family and friends up to date about everything that was happening to me, but I’m also glad that I have the blog to look back at. Sometimes, I still can’t believe this happened to me!
Tomorrow I have to return to the cancer center for the first time in months for my follow-up breast MRI and yearly mammogram – part of my continual screening plan. I’ve been feeling a little nervous. I keep convincing myself that I feel something abnormal and that I’ll have to go through all of this again. Well, my appointment is on 11/11/11 at 11am, so I’m hoping that’s good luck or something and that all my fears will be put to rest (and this is my 111th blog post – totally didn’t plan that). Hopefully, this time next year will be a little easier, but for now the month of November is still a reminder of when and how this whole cancer “journey” started.