Saying Goodbye

Bri and I had to say goodbye to Jessie Tuesday night.  I am confident that we made the best decision for her and her quality of life.  Basically, it was chronic renal disease, meaning her kidneys were shutting down, causing toxins to build up in her body and blood.  Since we adopted Jessie from a shelter, we don’t know how old she was exactly.  But I’m guessing she was upwards towards 9+ years. 
 
We visited with her for a few hours and said our goodbyes.  She wagged her tail when she first walked into the room and saw us.  But then she just laid down and looked like she was ready too.  We stayed with her until she was gone.  I kissed her, hugged her and thanked her for all the joy she brought into our lives.  I know that things will get easier over time, but right now Bri and I are really sad.  There’s a huge hole in my heart. 

We are trying to keep busy – busy is good.  Any opportunity to get out of the house is also good.  There are just too many Jessie memories in our house.  Bri keeps saying that he wants to sell our house and move.  And honestly, if the economy and housing market were better, I’d definitely entertain that idea. 

I do believe in heaven and doggie heaven  – although I’m not sure if the two are the same or separate.  But I’d like to think that Jessie is running and playing in doggie heaven.  Hopefully, she’s met some of our other dogs that we’ve lost throughout the years (Shatsie, Cheers, Checkers, and Dakota). 

Goodbye my sweet girl…

Me and my sweet girl on Christmas morning 2010.